MY WORLD IN WORDS (ang buhay ko sa salita)...

[donzky25]

Kilala mo naman ako, diba? Hindi pa? Ako si [b]Donna (pasensiya na't hindi ko na sasabihin pa ang buong pangalan ko.) Matagal na rin ako dito sa FNETS!, ngunit minsan na lang ako aktibo. Abala kasi sa mga trabaho sa eskwela na kailangan kong panindigan bilang isang tapat na mag-aaral (pero minsan, aaminin ko, tamad ako).

Nakatira ako sa Abu Dhabi, UAE. Kung hindi ka pamilyar, malapit ito sa Dubai, na sikat sa magagandang tanawin nito, at sa dami nang mga OFW na nagtatrabaho dito. Ngunit, ang Abu Dhabi, at hindi ang Dubai, pa rin ang kabisera. Oo, nakapaligid sa akin ang mga disyerto at ako'y kasalukuyang nasa ibabaw ng mga langis na ikinabubuhay ng mayamang bansang ito.

Hindi na ko magbibigay ng iba pang mga impormasyon. Makikilala mo rin ako sa aking mga kwento[/b].

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Hello! I'll be blogging here na. hehe. So there. I just hope to update this regularly.

Hehe. Paumanhin at medyo korni! Pagbigyan nyo na. Oh well, kung sino ka mang nagbabasa, salamat, katoto. :smyl:

"I feel certain that I am going mad again. I feel we can't go through another of those terrible times. And I shan't recover this time. I begin to hear voices, and I can't concentrate. So I am doing what seems the best thing to do. You have given me the greatest possible happiness. You have been in every way all that anyone could be. I don't think two people could have been happier till this terrible disease came. I can't fight any longer. I know that I am spoiling your life, that without me you could work. And you will I know. You see I can't even write this properly. I can't read. What I want to say is I owe all the happiness of my life to you. You have been entirely patient with me and incredibly good. I want to say that — everybody knows it. If anybody could have saved me it would have been you. Everything has gone from me but the certainty of your goodness. I can't go on spoiling your life any longer."

-Virginia Woolf, to her husband

[donzky25]

6:10-- my wake-up time today. as i opened my eyes, i knew i wasn't gonna expect anything about this plain-old-boring, same-old-story day (i was gonna be disappointed if i did). what was on my mind was just the usual thing: get up, live, sleep, get up again.

life will always be miserable if only not with my ex, my bestfriend, and my close friends (who are three two to mention: rozyl & havane).  my life will be unimaginably miserable like hell without them. i have no life in my life. i hate it. i really do. i wanna go back to believing in everything and knowing nothing at all. i hate crying myself to sleep. i hate crying as my lullaby, but at the same time i always wanna break down and cry.. i just feel so f_cking sad about my life! asking me why? im also not in the know. HINDI KO ALAM. BLANKO. im thinking about maybe im just bored (like what i've said: get up, live, sleep, get up again-- and they haven't been this hard!).

nothing special (and it's as if something had been special this past few years of my life!). period. dad drove me, hav, and che to school. and while driving he was making kulit at me. WHATEVER. i still hate him and even shouted at him: "daddy wag mo nga akong inisin!!!" obviously, i was in a bad mood. what's new, anyway? with just seeing his face and hearing his voice, i will immediately have the worst day.

and blahblahblah the same thing that happens everyday in school. so since the first 4 hours of school, kaye (my BestGirlFriend) and i has already been planning to have a date @ hardee's (since it's always been our school's students' tambayan). i thought our PEHM teacher wasn't gonna have class anymore (since she always did that) so i decided na lang for my BGF and i to leave the school earlier... unfortunately, she had class w/ us-- something that happens once in a blue moon. and it was a quiz. not a surprise one. i was just wayyy tooo lazy to study PEHM. and of course, i failed. 12/20. plus the essay pa, sabihin na nating zero ako dun. it's ok. i don't care. soooo, after school, kaye and i were hurrying up na to go to hardee's because a) i didn't want my ex to drop me there at hardee's b) i needed to come home early (cuz i thought we were gonna go to Al Ain! i hate my parents! hindi natuloy! w/c simply means i am gonna attend the cheerdance practice tomorrow! and i don't want that to happen!). while we were heading to hardee's, my ex followed me, i ignored him. i always did. but that time it was different. maybe he thought i was angry with him. and siguro inisip nya na iniiwasan ko siya. but i was not. i was just A BIT pissed. idk why... hmm, maybe i just need to get myself used to not having and being with him everyday. that someday he'll be gone.. that maybe there's no way we could have another relationship again, no matter how i badly like that to happen. then while we're near na, he was gone and i've gone 'wth?'.. i was sad then. sooo sad. i didn't and still don't know why he needed to do that. why he did that. he hurt me. he hurt my bleeding heart. anyway.... @ hardee's, i already ordered. i paid for kaye's nuggets, in short, libre ko. then my mom called me on my cp. i wondered why. she told me she was in school to bring me home w/ my tita and her car. so wtf right? i love surprises but not that kinda surprise. it's simply horrible. so there, me and my BGF's date was cancelled, and i told hav and jasmine to eat our orders na lang (w/c wasn't still served that time), and we left hardee's.. my tita and mom drove kaye and her bro at home..... it was a bad day. VERY BAD.  :embarass:

and now i'm at home. nothing to do but to blind my eyes with this monitor and deaf my ears with the sound of the keyboard. my life is boring. my friends think i'm close to perfection... but it's just exactly the opposite of what they think. i'm alone. and sad. and incomplete.

i wonder if there's gonna be a time when i cannot handle everything anymore. im sick and tired of my life. and it has never been easy being me.  :animcry: :animcry:

[donzky25]

why are you hurting me this much? do i deserve this cruelty? what did i do for you to make me feel worthless and unloved? but still, i am understanding you. you know i love you sooo much. and i'll do anything just for us to be ok again. kahit na ikaw pa may kasalanan  :animcry: :crybaby: :crybaby:

[georgy_porgy]

@donzky oky ka lang ba??? enjoy life...

[donzky25]

(03-13-2007 04:21 PM)dark_crazy_demon Wrote:  @donzky oky ka lang ba??? enjoy life...

hmm.. thanks.

[donzky25]

two cups full of mocha frappuccino, a soft bronze-colored sofa arm chair, a small table, walls filled with inspiring quotes written on, the silence i've been craving my whole life for, and, a good friend, it's never impossible to start a sensible conversation (and you know where i was, right? c'mon. you once told me you're addicted to it, well, if you really did tell the world about how you love starbucks. fyi, it was like my 3rd or fourth time to drink there. i ain't really a caffeine-craze).

she always knew i hated her, i hated the two of them. she told me that there's no use of hating her after admitting something to me since she knew i loathed her already, for some reasons. well, i just replied her with, "ok then i'm gonna hate you more since you know i hate you now." But we're good friends. really good friends. we're close, we always share the same thoughts, from politics, to heartaches, and even to paris hilton and that-hot-guy-she's-with's music video in 'stars are blind.' and, we always have fun. but still, she knows i hate her.

first, we talked about 'hey, who's more inhuman (during the world war 2 only, ok?), the japanese or the german? what if they fought each other?'

second, we spoke about 'my tita's husband was offered a $18,000-salary job in nigeria. wth? & they're gonna check in nigerian embassy if there's really that kinda company existing'

third, 'do you think it is puppy love? or is that even close to puppy love?' so there. the natter got more and more exciting. SHE'S SUCH A MARTYR! (i'm zipping my mouth. everything was confidential. and you're reading) her eyes were filled with tears, pretending i haven't noticed any of of those 'waterworks.' and she's gotten 29 dry cuts on her arms. she said it didn't hurt that much compared to the pain she held in her ripped-out heart. she's pathetic. sooo pathetic indeed. and then i knew i'm not alone (i'm just lost)...

some people really are just MEANT to be immature. and that's just soooo plainly stupid! burn in hell you so-called _________________!!! hope they'd get the bad karma they're worth.

how could be the world so cruel to people who doesn't even deserve any cruelty?

well, uhm... i'm not really as angry as how i sound right now. maybe i'm just really good when it comes to sarcasm. i am acid-tounged.

so we've been chitchatting for almost two hours. it's been really great (though i know you think it isn't).