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06-03-2007, 11:06 AM

This is where I indulge myself
looking at your photographs

I always loved seeing you smile
you shine like never before

whenever I'm alone, (most of the time I am)
I just take the moment and ponder about you

It just feels weird, I know
the chances are slim to get near to you

I want to be sure about this feeling
yet the time is not now

days are longer than before
I'm not happy with it

When I wake up in the morning
the thoughts of you rush in my mind

but when I sleep very late at night (after thinking of you)
heck you flood my dreams

This would rather go on forever
if I don't make up my mind.

but if I do, I'd be risking it all
or worse, I would screw up and lose you

why would I lose you,
if i don't have you at all?

I'm not actually afraid
but I'm having worries about the outcome of this

I haven't done anything at all, in truth
I can't get near you without turning into a freak show

Just a little chat and stuff
yet I still find the need of you

I'm already having second thoughts
is it already the right time for me?

more importantly,
will you be ready for this?

speaking of which
may I ask, will you be accepting me?

these doubts of the heart
I need to overcome for myself

I know I'm a coward, maybe gay at times
but nevertheless, I know I'm will not be lying

when my heart says what it has to say
when it feels what it really needs to feel

sooner or later I will find my happiness
the true happiness that i deserve

hell yeah, 5 years or more
but I don't care how long does it take

Just wait for me and see
you'll be happier like you've never been happy before

that is, if it's still you I'm longing for
it's you that I'm needing of
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02 Jun 07
maruko-kun