seNd my LoVe to Heaven...

[ladyblunch]

hey guyz hop u'll hav tym 2 rid d hul s2ry..it's not rily originally myn, i just found d print out of diz article sumwer n our hauz wen we had our gen.cleaning..hehehe..8s so touching and it structs me a lot so juz wanna share!!!..


...what can i say about a girl i loved since I was 10..dat i luv d way she laughs at me wen i commit mistakes, d way she fusses over silly things & even d way she cries over sum sad silly late nyt show? sumhow, i wished i cud hav told her dat i luv her but now der's no hope in doing so. for now, 8's rader too late- too late 4 me to do so. :cry2:

she was my best friend & i hav known her since we were small. she knew ol my screts, which reveals my feelings 4 her, dat i luv her not only bcuz she's pretty & smart but also d way she laughs at everythng & d way she sees life & luv.

i cud still rmember d frst tym we met; i was 5yrs.old den. it was 1 windy afternun hving no 1 to play with except for my best friend, Troy. he & his family juz moved out 2 transfer at a neughbouring state bcuz his father got promoted. and so i climbed up our tree hauz, i saw a moving truck coming down d street. i watched it approaching & noticed a fmily station wagon following it. it stopped in front of d haus & out came a family. i was about to glance away wen out came d loveliest girl i've seen. She was 4yrs old dat tym but den even at an early age she was a beauty. she had long curly hair, which reached almost to her waist. she had fair complexion and eyes, which cud make a man, lose his heart into dem. I continued 2 watch her wen suddenly she looked up & saw me watching dem in a tree hauz window. I was about 2 duck wen she smiled and waved her hand. I waved bak den watched n amazement as i saw her running towards d tree hauz. So i went 2 d edge of d ladder and said, "Would u lyk 2 c*m up?" she answered,"May I?" So I help her climb up and wen she reached d top she turned 2 me and said, "By d way, my name's Sam, wat's urs?" i answered, "My name is Christopher but den u can call me Chris." She smiled and said, "Well i lyk ur name. Hey ur tree haus' neat!" den i replied, "Thnx!Troy and I made dis.This used 2 be our hide out. We used 2 goof around, play ball & go biking 2geder. He was my bestfrnd & i kind of miss him u know." She smiled and said, "I'm here now, now we cud do things u do w/Troy and i cud be ur new bestfrnd too. I nver had a boy for a frend b4 so it cud be exciting to hav one. Now how does dat sound 2 u?" I smiled and said,"Well dat sounds good enough." Den she held her hand and said "It's a deal den!" So dat's how it started.

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So we became bestfrends & it was kind strange at first for she was a girl & der r things which I was little bit hesitant to indulge her lyk catching frogs,swimming in d lake & climbing trees, but den she tryd & did evrythng just to please me. der was even a tym wen she fell of d bike trying to catch up w/me in a race we had & i was d one who bandaged her scraped knee. I cud still rmember d tym wen she hit d window of our neighbour wen we wer playing baseball & it was i hu talked to Mr.Chambers & promised to pay 4 d damage,w/c meant hving to loose a week's allowance. I remembrd d tym wen i fell off d tree wen i tryd 2 rescue a little kitten bcuz Sam was near 2 tears wen she saw d helpless kitten trapped in a branch. I even fought w/d tough guy wen dey teased Sam and made her cry & I ended up hving a black eye & a bruised cheek. I remmber Sam crying as she placed an ice bag over d damaged eye & later gave it a get-well kiss. I did evrythng to please her & gave evrythng her little heart desires.

d lake was our favorite hang-out. we had our Saturday swim routine. She would pack food & later eat dem under d big oak tree. Der was a special branch in which the two of of us could sit 2geder and tell each oder's dreams. She dreams of being a Ballerina & she knws my dream of becoming a doctor. She nver laughs at my dreams & pursuits even if dey wer quite impossible. It made me lyk her even more.

As yrs went by, I noticed dat my feelings 4 her wer slowly changing. Sumhow, I thought it was juz a smple crush case. But wen I started thnking abwt her at nyt, dreaming of her & hving d feeling of wanting 2 be w/her ol d tym, I thought it was sumting diffrent, sumtng dat mde me feel strange, but den it was exhilarating feeling. it made me feel so alive. Wenever our hands touch, I cud feel d d tingling sensation in my spine. 1nce wen we wer at d lake hving our Saturday swim routine & so I carried her towards d water edge, I had d feeling of not wanting to let go. I juz wnted dat moment 2 continue hoping it wud nver end. I den realizes I was slowly falling in luv w/my BeStFriend.

Many tyms I tried 2 deny d feeling for I was scared 2 imagine wat wud happen f ever i'd try 2 tell her how I feel abwt her. I was scared bcuz she myt think dat i'm taking advantage of her & our friendship. I was afraid of losing her so I juz kept my feeling hidden.

We reached the age of 15 & I noticed dat Sam grew lovelier each day. how my heart aches wenever I see boys glance her way. I want 2 punch deyr noses as I watch dem talking 2 her gving compliments,flowers & chocolates. Der wer tyms wen I watch her at a distance mixed feelings of anger & hurt becuz it hurts so much 2 know dat der wer so many thngs i wanted 2 tell her but den i cud not do so. der wer so many resents w/c I long 2 give her but den i cud not 4 she myt see me oly as a frend. I was also scared of letting her know how i feel about her as much as losing her.

den 1 day, I juz learned frm a frend dat she already had a boyfrnd. At frst, I tryd 2 convince myself dat it was juz a rumour. Her boyfrnd was Mark, a popular senior, hu was d heartthrob of d campus. She, being d cheerleader was close 2 d basketball team, w/c Mark was d captain. Wen I saw dem wlking 2geder at d parking lot dat afternun, I watched her w/ my heart slowly breaking in2 pieces. I saw her wave at me but I just pretended not 2 see her for I was scared dat she myt see in my eyes d pain I'm feeling insyd bcuz of seeing her w/anoder guy.

dos days dat followed wer d saddest days of my lyf. How my heart aches when I see her walk by me w/him at her syd. Everytym we meet in hallways & I see him around her der's a feeling insyd me dat makes me want to grab her away frm him. Sumbody else now owned how it hurts 2 see d girl I long possess. Dat spcial smyl I long 4 her 2 cast on me was now casted on him as she passed by me she doesn't knw dat I whisper d words "God how I love you."

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den 1 faithful day dey broke up. She came 2 dat evening crying on my shoulder. Dey had a big fight & it ended up to deyr break up. Mixed feelings were scaring me inside. I was happy bcuz she was free & mybe I wud hav d chance of telling her my true feelings 4 her but den i was feeling so bad bcuz she is crying her heart out juz 4 him. At dat tym, I was not quite sure of wat I wanted to do.
      So we found ourselves doing wat we did in old days w/our Saturday swim routine, spending tym in our tree hauz. We still enjoyed doing childish pranks 4 we still r both young at heart. So many chances I had 4 me 2 confess my feelings 4 her but still I cudn't bring myself to her for I was scared of losing her 1nce more. I 1nce lost her, now I cud not bear of losing her agen by telling her I love her. So I juz kept my feelings even f it was bursting 2 expressed frm my aching heart.

It was a week from our JS Prom, we wer seated at d branch of an oak tree drying ourselves after our afternun swim wen she said, "I was wondering Chris if u wud lyk 2 be my partner?" It juz got out of my wits 4 it was lyk a dream I nver thought wud happen. It took me awhile 2 answer her, "I thought der r so many boys hu wud die 4u 2 be deyr partner?" So she turned away & quitely said, " Well I juz thought I wud lyk 2 spend dat nyt w/my bestfrend." Den she continued in a whisper I cud barely hear, "Don't u want 2 die juz lyk dem 2 be my partner Chris?" I was too stunned to speak 2 it came close 4 me 2 blurt my feelings 4 her. We wer silent 4 a while until I finally whispered, "I wud be happy 2 be ur partner Sam." Den she smiled & suddenly kissed my cheek. I cud hardly contain d joy i felt dat tym. I saw her turned red & bowed her head. Suddenly she stood up & run towards d water saying,"Last 1 2 reach d water trearts to sundae fudge!" I ran slowed up so dat i wud lose w/c meant hving 2 hav her w/me 4 anoder 3hrs or more.

Our Prom myt came. I bought a new tuxedo & poured almost d entire bottle of perfume. I went to fetch Sam. Sam's mother greeted me & I went 2 sit in d living rum waitng 4 her 2 c*m down. I was talking 2 her father wen I heard her say, "How do I look?" I look up & saw Sam lovelier dan ever in a strapless white dress w/ her hair flowing around her face. I stood up & opened my mouth but found no voice. den I got her hand shakily fastened the corsage around her wrist & whispered,"To d loveliest grl in d whole world." She den asked,"Is dat true?" I nodded & she smiled bak den I turned 2 open d door 4 her.

wen we arrived at d gymnasium we hardly recognized our classmates. Gone wer d jeans&tshirts. Dey wer replaced w/tuxedos & gowns. Den I held out her hand bowed & said, "Would u give me d honour of ur first dance?" she laughed & curtseyed. Den I led her 2 d dance floor. It was lyk a dream cuming true, a moment of enchantment. I was der dancing w/d only girl I ever luvd. She wer smiling up to me as we wer slowly moving n a smooth gliding motion. Der wer so many thngs I wanted 2 tell her dat moment. I wanted 2 tell her dat she was d most beautiful girl dat nyt. I wanted 2 tell her dat she wud always be d beacon of light in my darkness, but wat i wanted 2 tell her d most was dat i love her. I drew up all my courage and bent 2 whsper it in her ear but suddenly d music stopped & d magic was gone. I came 2 telling her, but still havn't done it.

we walked towards d table & found ourselves surrounded by frnds. I asked her f she wnted a drink,she nodded & so I went 2 get 1. It took me a long tym 2 get 1 & wen I returned 2 our table, she was gone. I asked her frnd where she was but she doesn't know. So I went & search 4her. As I was searching 4her, I reached d garden. Der I saw 2 silhoutte figures oulined by d moon's silvery lyt. Dey wer so close 2 each oder. I cud nver descryb d feeling I had wen I recognized d white dress Sam was wearing dat nyt. I juz turned & left d gymnasium.

Since dat nyt, I avoided her. I was afraid 2 hear her say dat she luvs Mark & not me. I wud rader hav left in ignorance of her true feelings 4 me dan 2 hear frm dos dreaded words & feel my hope crash & my heartbreak. I didn't return her calls. I wud not see her f she cums in2 our haus. In d hallways, as she approaches i wud go anoder direction. It also hurts 2 do those thngs but den I thought dat was d best way 2 4get her. those months wer tormenting but still I kept my pride.

D day of our graduation came. I was planning to take up medicine at a neighbouring state & was to move out d next day. As d program ended, she approached me & handed me a rose. As she stared at me, der was sumtng in her eyes I cudn't descryb. Der was sadness in dem & she smiled it wasn't d same smile she had. I wanted 2 hug her at dat moment, tell her dat i luv her but den she turned & walked away frm me. So I moved out d next day as I planned. Luckily, I was accepted at d university. I concentrated w/my studies but still I think of her at nyt. I was always wondering if she thinks of me too. I tryd hard not to think of her but still I cud not stop myself frm loving her. Each achievement I hav was done 4her. I thought dat f i wil be successful 1 day, I wud be able 2 tell her dat I luv her. I thought dat tym, I'm worthy of having her.

it was a year after our graduation wen i decided 2 return & see her agen. I thought a year is too much 4 me not to see her & during d past I felt lyk a person lost in d desert & only d sight of her cud quench d thirst I have insyd. As I got off d plane, I went home directly, desperate 2 get 2 her haus desperate 2 see her,to hug her. Den I wud tell her dat I missed her & I hav loved her 4 a long tym.dis tym I am determined 2 let her know my true feelings 4 her & i cud not contain anymore d luv I hav 4 her. I reached deyr haus; I saw her older sisr\ter & I approached her. I smiled at her but I noticed she didn't smile bak. I was confused 4 she used 2be a cheerful lady juz lyk Sam. I den asked, "Hi Jen! I guess ur surprised y i'm here. Well I juz want 2 visit u & I was also hoping 2 see Sam. I knd of miss her u know. Ummm...by d way hav u seen her?" All I saw was sadness in her eyes as she replied quitely"Come follow me." I was confused w/ d way she's acting but still I followed her....(to be continued...)

[booba]

it was a nice story